POA, going on?

I'm troubled by the current POA situation i'm in... When Mr Wong announce that he is considering some of us peeps in POA class to drop the subject, I knew i was one of them.. I'm confused at that moment.. i don't really know if i am gonna drop it.. Mr Wong is gonna be disapointed, and i wanna to proved to him i can, work hard and get the job done.. But i'm not determined or influence him his speech everytime after he tries to get it in our brains..

I dunno what will push me on to work hard.. They often says you work haard for you own future, own self but i dont seem to look at it this way.. i want to too, but again not determined either.. Sometimes i wondered, i do want to make my parents proud, i do want to tell everyone i am indeed good, i can do it.. but i will not do it.. I used to yes, gotten good results and getting bad results will make me unhappy and will work harder next time... The determination of working hard in me, had long gone.. And i wondered where those determination came from..