Lonely Valentine
Few days ago i was so high, went crazy... Now, i feel like a man without soul... Well, this isn't the first time it happen... Perhaps i am easily influence, or rather take criticism to heart... It ain't difficult for me to change.. For a moment i can be happily playin' around, jokin'.. for another moment i am very depress.. Sometimes even when listenin to music, certain songs can make me really down..
Autistic i ain't, but i do drift off.. That's when i start smilin' to myself or mmm.. talkin'... This is kind of.. weird to people but i don't find it strange.. When i saw Sony Commercial on TV, the guy who goes around "listen sound to every detail", "feel every sound", it's kind of really what different people is.. I don't really know if ya understand.. I do really like to meet these peeps.. You thought you are the only one, but there are out peeps out there "just like me"~!! Lol...
I do really really want to concentrate on studies... It just seem that i've worried my life away... When i start to think of somethings, i can't do anything else.. Doin' Homework, do things i like, neither work nor play... i just stare into space and figure out.. i can't figure out anything anyway.. i always try to balance things.. i dunno i just see both sides of everything.. I'm really pissed with myself sometimes.. Even when i want to confront someone, i do really think hard if i'll do it on a hard appoach or soft.. or just forget about it..
About Valentine, i don't even want to talk about it now Lol... After wasting to much time thinkin' and "balancing", i guess it ain't worth is to go sooo crazy for hmm.. someone who ain't the right person to for... i hope i'll not go back on my words, like i always do.. Cos when i come to a decision, I'll stick with it cos i've enough of analyzing.. But as it goes i'll have different views of it again...
First Love, it is, hard to forget... You'll realize she ain't really the one, the dream girl, but the "no love lost" feelings will just keep haunting you... I'd ask myself sometimes, what'd she do to make me soooooo mad, still mesmerising... I don't know... I'll love to have a moment with her, telling her just what i think of her, how i still keep thinkin' of her everyday... How i felt thru these years that you just dunno... Maybe that'll make my love for you dies, but i can't face you.. I'm not a bad communicater but when it comes to this, i'll get tongue tied, my mind will be blank...
It's sad man.. I lust too easily.. I don't really talk to opposite sex cos i get confused with crush and love.. So i'll say keepin' yourself from it will eventually prevent it.. This is a quote from the movie"Win a Date with Tal Hamilton, "Love you get over in two months, big love you get over in two years, great love changes your life... " I certainly hope this love isn't great love.. haha..
Autistic i ain't, but i do drift off.. That's when i start smilin' to myself or mmm.. talkin'... This is kind of.. weird to people but i don't find it strange.. When i saw Sony Commercial on TV, the guy who goes around "listen sound to every detail", "feel every sound", it's kind of really what different people is.. I don't really know if ya understand.. I do really like to meet these peeps.. You thought you are the only one, but there are out peeps out there "just like me"~!! Lol...
I do really really want to concentrate on studies... It just seem that i've worried my life away... When i start to think of somethings, i can't do anything else.. Doin' Homework, do things i like, neither work nor play... i just stare into space and figure out.. i can't figure out anything anyway.. i always try to balance things.. i dunno i just see both sides of everything.. I'm really pissed with myself sometimes.. Even when i want to confront someone, i do really think hard if i'll do it on a hard appoach or soft.. or just forget about it..
About Valentine, i don't even want to talk about it now Lol... After wasting to much time thinkin' and "balancing", i guess it ain't worth is to go sooo crazy for hmm.. someone who ain't the right person to for... i hope i'll not go back on my words, like i always do.. Cos when i come to a decision, I'll stick with it cos i've enough of analyzing.. But as it goes i'll have different views of it again...
First Love, it is, hard to forget... You'll realize she ain't really the one, the dream girl, but the "no love lost" feelings will just keep haunting you... I'd ask myself sometimes, what'd she do to make me soooooo mad, still mesmerising... I don't know... I'll love to have a moment with her, telling her just what i think of her, how i still keep thinkin' of her everyday... How i felt thru these years that you just dunno... Maybe that'll make my love for you dies, but i can't face you.. I'm not a bad communicater but when it comes to this, i'll get tongue tied, my mind will be blank...
It's sad man.. I lust too easily.. I don't really talk to opposite sex cos i get confused with crush and love.. So i'll say keepin' yourself from it will eventually prevent it.. This is a quote from the movie"Win a Date with Tal Hamilton, "Love you get over in two months, big love you get over in two years, great love changes your life... " I certainly hope this love isn't great love.. haha..
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