My Dear Acquaintance
It's another month since my last post. Time flies. It seems only yesterday that I've spent my 25th February 29th , working and feeling dejected. I've always regard February 29 as a special day, because it is a special day. It comes once every 4 years, and while any ordinary day you'll state as 'A Year Ago Today' for happenings in the previous year, on February 29 you'll state as '4 Years Ago Today' for the previous leap day. Lame but true. ;)
Anyway, I had this strong desire in the upcoming days before this year's February 29. I wanted to spend this leap day with someone whom I used to adore. There's only one person that came to mind, and that's Blah Blah. :) I asked her out (not a date) for a movie (The Leap Years). She agreed, only to tell me the day before that she couldn't make it. It wasn't bad, there's always next time yeah? I told her if she had the time gimme a call or something. She never did, neither do I.
I wanna know her better (as a friend), as it seems I never know her at all. We were so close yet so far apart. She is like the friend I've never had. It's funny our chats were awkward, and ends awkwardly. I should talk to her again, like always, after a few months. Its like meeting someone for the first time, every time. (Woah nice quote!) It's been years since I'm in "good terms" with her. Kinda miss that feeling, nice, warm whatever... Though the feeling is not as strong as before, its still intact. I can't let it go on this way. Those beautiful memories must be recreated, fill it with new wonderful ones. We have been through the acquaintance stage way too many times. I care about her more than any other friends, probably because its a female friend or whatever I don't know, I just don't want this friendship to end.
What can I say? "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all?" I won't put it this way but rather "You don't know what you are missing until you are on the verge of losing or have lost it."
Anyway, I had this strong desire in the upcoming days before this year's February 29. I wanted to spend this leap day with someone whom I used to adore. There's only one person that came to mind, and that's Blah Blah. :) I asked her out (not a date) for a movie (The Leap Years). She agreed, only to tell me the day before that she couldn't make it. It wasn't bad, there's always next time yeah? I told her if she had the time gimme a call or something. She never did, neither do I.
I wanna know her better (as a friend), as it seems I never know her at all. We were so close yet so far apart. She is like the friend I've never had. It's funny our chats were awkward, and ends awkwardly. I should talk to her again, like always, after a few months. Its like meeting someone for the first time, every time. (Woah nice quote!) It's been years since I'm in "good terms" with her. Kinda miss that feeling, nice, warm whatever... Though the feeling is not as strong as before, its still intact. I can't let it go on this way. Those beautiful memories must be recreated, fill it with new wonderful ones. We have been through the acquaintance stage way too many times. I care about her more than any other friends, probably because its a female friend or whatever I don't know, I just don't want this friendship to end.
What can I say? "It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all?" I won't put it this way but rather "You don't know what you are missing until you are on the verge of losing or have lost it."
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